Is any sick among you? let him call for the elders of the church; and let them pray over him, anointing him with oil in the name of the Lord:
– James 5:14
I have to confess when I spoke with a couple of people at church about a day of fasting for the ill, I never imagined the answer to that prayer would hurt so much. Our church fasted for the many that have dealt with numerous health struggles, with a main focus on 36-year-old Lester Drennen. Lester suffered for four or five years due to complications that arose from juvenile diabetes. He underwent a plethora of surgeries and amputations, nearing death a couple of times.
Lester went home to be with to be with the Lord on Friday, July 15, 2011. Our church fasted Thursday, July 14, 2011.
I realize that this is a great thing for Lester because he is whole again. He is in the midst of our Lord and King, walking the street of gold. A hole has been left here, however. He will be greatly missed by many!
Sometimes, the answers to our prayers are not what we ask for or expect to see. Sometimes, they are what we pray for but hurt tremendously in the process. I have been reminded this twice in the last couple of weeks.
We prayed for my grandma’s suffering to end as well. It did. She went home to be with the Lord on July 11, 2011. She no longer suffers from a broken collar-bone. She does not experience the dreadful pain of cancer infecting her bones anymore. She, like Lester, is freed from the earthly body that wore out. They both received a hearty welcome into heaven I am sure!
It is sown a natural body; it is raised a spiritual body. There is a natural body, and there is a spiritual body. – 1 Corinthians 15:44
I almost feel guilty for feeling so emotionally unstable; I mean, we should be happy for their life in heaven, right? Yet, moments of distraught strike at unexpected or unwanted moments.
Yesterday, as I drove to the funeral home to pay my respects to Lester and encourage Amy, I took the route I should have avoided. All it took was seeing the familiar intersection. I didn’t even get to the nursing home yet when the tears broke out from my eyes. The sore was too fresh. Even driving in the area caused a struggle in my soul. I didn’t even have to consciously think about grandma to feel the pain.
One thing I am not used to is dealing with this stuff. I have encountered a lot of death to be honest, but I was far enough away that I never truly had to deal with it. I have been one that tries to hide from these things, not deal with it. This is probably the first time I have truly dealt with death head on. It is not easy, my friend. My flesh has been begging me to stop. It told me not to go to Lester’s funeral today, but I ignored it and went anyway.
Death will never be an easy thing to handle. Nevertheless, there is a comfort in knowing that both were not only saved but saints of God. They both served faithfully and loved the Lord more than anything else! I praise Jesus for that!
I realize that I should not feel guilty for mourning, as the Bible tells us we will, but I feel like I should be rejoicing at their gain, not sad for our loss. Please excuse my spiraling emotions.
Blessed are they that mourn: for they shall be comforted. – Matthew 5:4
A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance; – Ecclesiastes 3:4
I praise the Lord that I can spend this evening in the house of God! There are three places to be that can comfort and help in these situations: God’s House, God’s Word, and God’s midst (in prayer). I will be blessed with all three tonight!
The LORD will give strength unto his people; the LORD will bless his people with peace. – Psalm 29:11
God will provide peace! Do you experience God’s peace? You can!