Today’s Daily Meds: Personal Examination

Today’s Daily Meds: A trial is nothing more than a personal examination of where we are placing our confidence.

In this world, trials and tribulations are a guarantee. There is just no way around it. The question is how we will respond to them. Will we throw in the towel? Will we try to overcome them? Where will our confidence lie?

It may be easy to say, “Well, I trust God, of course.” In all honesty, that would probably be my answer if someone asked. However, how often do our actions support our lips? Do we truly place confidence in God’s hand when facing trials, or do we just say we do? It is time for a personal examination.

“God searches our hearts, and puts us on trial so that we might know our hearts and see ourselves like He does – from the inside out!” writes Steve Curington in Preparing for Peace: Overcoming Strife through the Peace of the Hid-N-Life. We think we know our hearts, but in reality, we know nothing. God tells us this through Jeremiah: The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it? (17:9)

I know I have mentioned this before, but I have struggled with some haunting tapes from my past. There are things in that back closet that give me chills. I go through spells where the devil keeps hitting play on me. A wise friend, and sister in Christ, has told me numerous times that I need to hit the stop button. The problem is I tend to stumble around while looking for it. I hit pause instead of stop, which is not good. It keeps the images in there instead of cutting them off.

As I have tried to evaluate why I struggle so much, I realized that I do not place confidence in the Lord like I should in that area of my life. By not releasing that to Him, I am saying that He is not capable of helping me. In blatant terms, I am telling Him that I do not have faith that He has truly forgiven that part of my life.

Satan will try to convince some to doubt their salvation. I praise God that I have not suffered that. Nevertheless, I have doubted full forgiveness. It’s been kind of the “Sure, I will go to heaven and be with my Lord. However, while I am here on earth, I will continuously reap the consequences of these past sins.” An example would be how at one time, I was convinced God would never give me a husband because I screwed up so badly. I have finally come to realize that if God never gives me a husband, it has nothing to do with my past. It has everything to do with Him wanting my full attention on the ministry. It doesn’t stop Satan from whispering it, though.

My confidence does not always lie where it should. When trials and tribulations hit, we possess the ability to grow and strengthen ourselves. By trusting in the Lord, our personal development can be astronomical in many ways. What is important is that during those times we are evaluating ourselves.

“You don’t have to have any more faith. When the apostles asked the Lord to increase their faith, they were not talking quantitatively but durationally . . . They didn’t need more faith because they had all the faith they would ever need; they had the faith of the Lord Jesus Christ embodied within their spirit in the form of His spirit,” writes Curington. “We merely need to yield to God’s faith in the face of difficult circumstances.”

The question that presents itself in the time of trials is not whether you have enough faith; the question that presents itself in the time of trials is whether you have confidence in that faith. The faith we trust in is not our own; it belongs to the Lord Jesus Christ. Are we confident enough that His faith will bring us through the difficult time? Do we trust Him, or do we feel the need to figure things out on our own? Is our confidence in Jesus or in ourselves?

How’s your confidence today? Do you trust the Lord’s hand on your trials? Will you allow Christ to live through you even when you do not fully understand what is going on? Can you crucify self to live?

I am crucified with Christ: nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Christ liveth in me: and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of God, who loved me, and gave himself for me. – Galatians 2:20


Today’s Meds were used by permission of Reformer’s Unanimous International.

© 2009 by Boyd Stevens Publications
All rights reserved. Permission obtained to use Steve Curington’s Preparing for Peace: Overcoming Strife through the Peace of the Hid-N-Life as a part of this blog by Reformer’s Unanimous International.


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