But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint. – Isaiah 40:31
Have you ever experienced the Top Thrill Dragster at Cedar Point? It is a roller coaster that shoots you off and hits about 120 mph in merely a few seconds. It can either be exhilarating or excruciatingly scary, depending on your level of thrill seeking. Personally, I love the speed and adrenaline rush!
Sometimes, life can change at a rate that the Dragster does, and it takes faith to endure that change. What we forget at times….I forget at times…..is that change can be great but it isn’t always easy.
The last two and a half years have been filled with change for me, so you would think I would be used to it. I lived 13.5 years of my life living like a heathen. I lived like the devil in many ways, and I am far from proud of that. In July of 2009, I rededicated myself to the Lord and started living right. From then on, my path has followed many twists and turns.
I am not complaining about the twists and turns because there is NOTHING more exciting and fulfilling than to follow the Lord’s path. I don’t care what people say, living the Christian life is awesome!! It took me a long time to realize something important though: it is so much more exciting and satisfying (and humbling) if we let go of control and let God steer! Although I still fight with the flesh over this, I am becoming more successful!
God laid on my heart before I arrived here that this venture to the WalkRight Bible Institute would be all about faith. He has worked diligently on me to trust Him for everything! Sometimes, it is easier to trust Him in the big things (like with a sick family member) than the little things (making my school bill payment on time). I won’t claim to already know even half of the things I am learning here, but I do feel that my purpose here as a slightly older lady is somewhat different from the other students.
I will be venturing off to do missions work one day, and I MUST have strong faith in order to do that! In order to have strong faith, God has to prepare my heart. Therefore, He is placing me in situations that require faith or fail. I have two choices here: trust in the Lord or give up all together. I have been in the latter situation and never want to go there again.
I have been challenged with ways to help some of these young girls in areas that I have been through. I have been challenged to set a good example to them. It would be no benefit if I walked around breaking rules, blowing off homework, acting inappropriately, etc… As it says in Titus 2:4, That they may teach the young women to be sober, to love their husbands, to love their children. Okay, so I cannot help in the husband thing, considering God hasn’t supplied one yet, but I can teach them how to be sober and love. I can teach them the dangers of not being in God’s Will.
I am thankful for the changes God has been making in my life. My prayer is that by the time I leave WalkRight, I will be a changed person and will be useable to God in my call to full-time ministry! 🙂